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  When he finally takes her to a kind of trestle for her to lean on, so that no detail of the finale will be lost to the camera lens, and fumbles with the orange nylon rope so badly that he drops it and she has to pick it up for him, I grab the remote and switch it off.

  Kimberley looks at me with disappointed eyes. "Sonchai — "

  "I can't."

  "If you don't, it'll haunt you for life."

  "I'm Thai. All Thais are haunted for life."

  "Sonchai!"

  "Fuck your tough love, Kimberley. It's destroying the world, haven't you noticed?"

  Suddenly I'm outside her suite, slamming the door. It is a genuine tantrum, complete with amnesia: I have no idea how I got out into the corridor at this moment. I do know that I'm running, though. There is really only one thing to do at a time like this.

  I take a cab in the direction of the police station but have the driver stop at Phra Titanaka's wat. Just outside the massive doors a string of stalls sell candles, lotus wreaths, and monk baskets. I am still shaking when I buy all the paraphernalia you need for a serious exorcism. The baskets these days are no longer wicker or bamboo but the same semi-transparent buckets of lurid hue you would use for washing the car, although these are all saffron-tinted. Inside, ready-packed by the stallholder, I find all a monk needs to survive a day or two in that spiritual desert called maya: a pack of instant coffee, biscuits, Lux brand soap, two cans of 7UP, a box of yaa dum aromatherapy sticks, toothpaste, toothbrushes, and incense. The whole idea of tambun is to store up treasure for chart na: give flowers, you'll be beautiful; give money, you'll be rich; give medicine, you'll be healthy; give candles, you'll be enlightened. It's a long wait for the next life, though, when you're only thirty-five.

  The magic is more powerful the more senior you go, so I seek out the abbot and offer him the goodie-crammed bucket, which he accepts with a nod. Now I'm in the temple kneeling before the great golden Buddha on the platform, holding my trembling hands in a high wai and begging for mercy. My mother, Nong, in extremis has been known to promise a thousand boiled eggs and a couple of roasted hogs' heads, but I am of a different generation: I'll be a better husband, a perfect father, a better cop, a wiser teacher to Lek, a more devout Buddhist-I'll do anything, anything at all, just to get this THING off my back.

  You never know immediately if it's going to work or not-it all depends on the unpredictable compassion of the Buddha-but for the moment I'm satisfied I've done what I can. I try to meditate for twenty minutes to give more power to my supplication; then, pretty much exhausted, I leave the temple. I'm on my way to the great gates, when a familiar figure catches my eye. Lek is sitting with Damrong's brother, Phra Titanaka, on a seat under the banyan tree. Lek is careful to keep his head below that of the monk's, while gazing at him with adoration. Phra Titanaka is speaking slowly, with a beautiful, compassionate smile on his face.

  Did you know, farang, that the ancients saw jealousy as a greenish horn-shaped intrusion of the astral body directly into the physical sheath? The cuckold's horns were independently witnessed all over the world even before the age of sail: the Maya, the ancient Egyptians, and the Japanese all knew about them as well as the Elizabethans. I know because I checked the Net. Well, Arbeit macht frei, they say, so I stroll back to the office projecting nonchalance to see if I can push the case a little further along. However, I find conventional forensic analysis unhelpful: there is no evidence to link Smith the suave lawyer and Baker the less-than-suave pornographer either to the snuff movie or to Nok's murder. Tanakan is only implicated to the extent that both atrocities took place in his very own perfumed garden-a circumstance he could argue away with a thousand-baht note. If, on the other hand, I unlock my bottom drawer and take out the old Burmese wooden phallus which I use only in extremis, like Green Lantern's light-mostly because it's embarrassingly large, with the glans painted a lurid crimson-and hang over it an amulet that Lek claims he got from a Khmer moordu of towering seniority-thus producing a kind of altar on my desk underneath the computer monitor-lean back on my chair, close my eyes, and let go of all extraneous thought, what do I find? Three blind mice propelled by tight little spirals of karma that go back many hundreds of years, and a black cat whose pleasure it is to toy with them.

  So much for clairvoyance; but the exercise does seem to have provoked a more mundane line of inquiry. I check the data Immigration sent me this morning. It is a curious fact that Baker, Smith, and Tanakan all arrived back in Bangkok from their various destinations overseas on the same day, some twenty-four hours after the end of the period during which forensics says Damrong must have died. Coincidence, or the inevitable response of three blind mice who had no reason to be elsewhere once the cat was dead?

  2

  The Masked man

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  The FBI is staring at a tureen of fat snails cooked in their own juice with a brown sauce. We are eating at D's, just off Silom, an open-air restaurant popular with those who work the Pat Pong bars.

  "You don't have to do this," I tell her. "Really. It's quite a risk you're taking."

  "I want to. I got into Thai food in the States, right after I met you the first time."

  I cannot comment because I never ate Thai food on my one trip to America. (To Florida; the John was a muscular seventy-something who meant well. I remember massive hands that were always fixing things, long hours while Mum and I stood around watching and applauding on cue at the Bathroom Leak Triumph, the Victory of the Fuse Box, the Battle of Flat Battery, et cetera. But he bored Nong so badly she had to invent a terminal illness for her mother so we could leave after a week. Back in Bangkok I had to deal with his pleading phone calls because Nong couldn't bring herself to speak to him. I was twelve.) I'm not as worried about the snails as I am about the somtan salad, which also has caught Kimberley's eye.

  "At least have some sticky rice with it. Roll it into a ball like this."

  She watches a little resentfully, having graduated in spice already. She copies me, however, dips her ball into the sauce, and munches merrily with no ill effects. "Delicious." I see no advantage in pointing out there were no chili fragments at that end of the salad.

  "We think he's in Cambodia," the FBI says. We are still doing Bright and Cheerful around each other, by the way, careful not to mention Lek.

  "Who?"

  "Kowlovski, the masked man. His isometric image was recorded entering Phnom Penh airport about a week ago. Meanwhile the LAPD has come up with a whole bunch of background data. It's like looking at a fly caught in a web. That guy was in deep trouble." She doesn't really want to eat any of the snails but feels honor bound to give one a go. "How do you do this?"

  "Suck."

  She does so, and after a moment of resistance the snail shoots out of its shell into her mouth. She starts to gag but masters herself manfully.

  "Money?"

  Covering her mouth and speaking through her fingers: "It all comes down to that. It's the California Catch. To be marketable you got to be glamorous and to be glamorous you got to be hip, and to be hip you got to have dough, and to have dough you got to be marketable."

  "Cocaine?"

  "Whatever's in style. This guy is a cipher. He has the mind of a whore: Whatever you want me to do for money-just make sure I look sexy while I'm doing it. He owes dealers and loan sharks, he owes back payments on child support for an ex-wife and two kids in Kansas, and he owes lease payments on some SUV he never drives far because he can't afford the gas. Threats pouring in. This is just stuff the guys on the ground over there picked up in one quick trawl through the porn industry. There are no secrets-it's a very transparent business."

  "So why Cambodia? If he was paid as much as we think for the flick, he could have settled all his debts and resumed the lifestyle, gone back to the more humdrum kind of studding."

  A shrug from the FBI. "We don't know. We only have one witness who saw him in the last couple weeks. It's an old girlfriend who he keeps in touch with. She says she's the only per
son in the world he's ever had a relationship with that went below the skin. She thinks he's a troubled soul, with everything repressed. That certainly fits the pattern for prostitutes, male and female."

  Kimberley rolls another ball of sticky rice and this time plunges it deep into the somtan salad, pressing it down to absorb more of the sauce, then takes a bite. I dare not get technical at this stage by explaining that the intense but transient suffering she is about to inflict upon herself has directly to do with the overstimulation of her second chakra, which of course is the prime mover in her passion for Lek.

  "Did she say anything else?"

  I have to wait for the answer because her mouth is on fire, she is hiccupping, a sweat has broken out on her forehead, and her face is heart-attack crimson. Cold water is the worst therapy, but she takes a gulp from the bottle in the ice bucket. Now she has to visit the bathroom. I munch on the somtan and pick off a couple of snails while I'm waiting for her to return. The chili in the somtan goes well with my cold Kloster beer. (The two streams come together in a riotous clash somewhere in the back of the throat, sending a delicious shock wave through the taste buds.) Now the FBI is marching back to the table, her face set.

  "Yes. She said he came back from a trip somewhere overseas a couple weeks ago and was real quiet, then disappeared altogether. Usually he's always ready with the latest friendly sound bite, normally a very personable guy in a Lycra kind of way. This time, though, he seemed depressed. She was surprised he had the depth to get depressed. I don't think I need any more snails or somtan salad."

  "I think they'll cook you a steak, if I ask them nicely."

  "I'm suddenly on a diet. How about I watch you eat, and I'll munch on some nice bland sticky rice if I get hungry?"

  "Okay. Did he seem to have money the last time she met him?"

  "Yes, she said he made a point of paying off some back rent on his apartment in Inglewood, cleared the slate with a grocery store, and gave her a silk shirt and skirt. They asked her if it was Thai silk, and she said she didn't know."

  Finally the braised duck has arrived in a pot. The FBI eyes it suspiciously, but when I assure her there are no spices in this dish, she takes a tentative bite, then digs in.

  Her cell phone rings, except nothing rings anymore. The gadget explodes with an old Thai number she grew fond of when she was here a few years ago: "Sexy, Naughty, Bitchy." She says, "Kimberley," and listens. Then she says, "Shit," and closes the phone.

  "He committed suicide in Phnom Penh yesterday. Apparently he used an AK-47 and a piece of rope tied around the trigger, which is not easy to do, but I guess if you're really determined to go that way…" She casts an eye over the remains of the meal, then looks at me. Hard to say what is causing my sudden loss of appetite: death; the manner thereof; the fact that the Masked Man will never be brought to justice; the memory of what he did to Damrong; the thought, only now surfacing in my mind, that I might have to make a visit to Phnom Penh. All of a sudden the energy has gone out of the day, and it's not because Mercury is retrograde (though it is, and our prime minister is on record as observing what a corrosive effect it is having on political life; for me, Mercury can come or go, but Jupiter conjunct the Moon in Scorpio- now that's a curl-up-in-bed-with-a-spliff day for yours truly).

  This case has a trick of remaining perpetually out of reach, like a mirage. And no, I do not want to go to Cambodia; they hate us over there. Both sides have made so many land grabs over the centuries that no one really knows who started the feud, which shows no sign of diminishing no matter how many Thais cross the border to gamble. I guess they've never really forgiven us for defeating them at Angkor Wat that time: even in those days about seven hundred years ago, the Khmer were so reliant on magic they stopped bothering with combat training; the Thai invasion could be likened to a motorcycle gang smashing its way into an undefended sweet shop. We took everything they had: women, boys, girls, slaves, gold, their astrology and their temple designs, music, dance — it was an early example of identity theft. Not their cuisine, though, which was way behind ours and still is. If we'd known how long they were going to hold the grudge, we might have shown more mercy.

  Suddenly the FBI and I don't want our eyes to meet. Without the illusion of work, or at least a case to discuss, we are left to wonder what to do about each other. We sneak glances when we think the other is not looking, bestowing wonder and pity at each other's karma. Finally Kimberley plays with a spare spoon on the table prior to getting something off her chest.

  "Maybe it's something about your country. I'm starting to feel like those middle-aged Western men you see walking up and down Sukhumvit with a girl on their arms half their age and looking like the cat that found the cream. I know I'm kidding myself." Looking me in the eye at last: "I know that, or at least the left lobe does. But I can't stop myself. Suddenly it's spring again, the kind of spring I never had — there were always too many goals to aim for. When he's around, I experience a deep sense of love, of affection, of compassion. What can I say? It's what I was always supposed to experience as a human being, right? That's what we're here for, even though it's totally impossible, isn't it? Don't tell me you didn't go through this with Damrong."

  I inhale deeply. "Of course I did. When you notice light seeping into your coffin, it's hard to go on pretending you're dead. You know the promise of life is not entirely hollow. Ecstasy is not just the name of a drug-there is something behind stones of paradise." I try to look at her with compassionate eyes. "If even a tiny part of you is still alive, you can't refuse the challenge."

  She looks up with humble eyes. "So you forgive me?"

  I slide my small hand over her big one. "Just be careful."

  "You think I'll destroy him?"

  "The other way around."

  She looks up into the trees that surround the open-air restaurant. "He hardly even notices me, right? He's not aware of me at all in that way."

  "How do you think the girls feel, when they walk down Sukhumvit with those farang men who grin like Cheshire cats? Do they feel like they found the cream too or merely a dirty job that pays better than factory work?"

  She nods. "But the surgery, Sonchai. That's just plain wrong."

  I shrug. No point getting back into that. We let a good ten minutes pass, during which the restaurant has started to play some old rock music on the sound system. At other tables a young Thai couple are looking as if they intend to spend the afternoon in a hotel nearby; five male middle managers in their twenties are having a lunchtime boozeup on rice whiskey; some farang tourists are poring over a map; and cats roam under tables looking for scraps. The FBI says, "I'll come with you. You need to go to Phnom Penh-a detective like you has to see for himself. I want to go too-I'm here for the case, after all. Anyway, I need a reality check. Maybe if I'm in a different country, I won't think about him so much."

  The FBI leaves me at Sala Daeng Skytrain station to go pack. I call Lek and tell him to meet me early this evening at his favorite katoey bar, called Don Juan's. I go back to the station to deal with a pile of paperwork, then go home to change and to tell Chanya I'm going to Cambodia for a day or so with the FBI. She toys with jealousy for a moment, but it's not enough to distract her from the soap she's watching. Her egg-shaped center of gravity provides an imperturbable complacency these days. "I'm also going to see Lek's moordu," I admit.

  She looks at me for a moment to make sure I'm serious, then smiles. "About time. Tell me if he's any good."

  "It's a katoey," I explain.

  She makes big eyes. "Even better." Katoeys are known to make excellent moordus.

  There are plenty of different expressions to denote transsexuals: second women, third sex, the different ones. I like Angels in Disguise best. Don Juan's is crammed with them. Smooth brown feminized flesh, padded bras and silicon-enhanced buttocks, plenty of jewelry-especially silver necklaces-shapely legs, lascivious laughter, cheap perfume, and sophisticated camp combine to lift desperate spirits for a night. You have to
admire their guts. I hardly recognize Lek in his lipstick, rouge, and mascara; a tight T-shirt emphasizes his budding breasts. I think he is wearing jeans rather than a skirt for my sake. He squeezes between sisters to reach me, beaming. I don't think he's given the FBI a single thought since her last lovelorn call to him.

  "This is my boss, my master," he tells his friends with unrestrained pride. "We're working on the most terrifying case you can imagine." He clamps a hand over his mouth. "But I can't tell you anything about it, it's so secret."

  "Pi-Lek is such a tease!" a katoey in long imitation-pearl earrings exclaims. "It's such a privilege to meet you. Pi-Lek has told us all about you-we know you're the most compassionate cop in Bangkok, in the whole world probably. Pi-Lek says you're already a private Buddha and stay on earth only to spread enlightenment. It's such an honor."

  "He exaggerates," I say. "I'm just a cop." It's hard not to be borne along by the avalanche of charm.

  "Come," Lek says, "let's go find Pi-Da." To his friends: "You can all run along now-my master hasn't come to waste time with silly girls." He waves a dismissive hand at them, provoking imitation tantrums and stamping of feet. He takes me by the hand to lead me through a crowd near the bar, then across to the other side of the room. His voice is considerably less camp when he says, "Pi-Da, this is my boss, Detective Jitpleecheep."

  Pi-Da clearly belongs to the other category of katoey. In his forties, with a big round face, a paunch, and heavy legs, he was never beautiful, but his womanly soul must have yearned for self-expression all his life. Lek has explained he is a performer in the "ugly drag" cabarets that feature in most katoey bars, when they send up their own camp culture. He is also a kind of wise aunt who eschews campspeak and all the usual trappings of his kind. His voice is high and naturally feminine, though. He is assessing me shrewdly even while we wai each other. Then he takes my hand to maneuver me to a table, where we sit down. I watch him clear his mind while he stares at me and I sense his penetration of my heart. He shudders, makes big eyes, stares at Lek for a moment, then back at me. Lek's face collapses when he says, "I'm sorry, this is too big for me, I can't go there. This haunting is too powerful." He makes a gesture to push me away. Lek and I share a moment of confusion; then Lek says, "You have embarrassed me."